Hey you all.
I’m not sure how rigidly computer access will be restricted while I’m in treatment, so I wanted to post before I leave. I think a good thing to post now would be my goals because then I can look back and see if I have fulfilled them. I also think these goals are worthy of anyone’s efforts, regardless of whether or not you have any eating problems.
TOP TEN GOALS (in no particular order)
1. Follow the program without trying to compromise with ED; i.e., during menu planning, instead of counting calories, pick what you’d most enjoy.
2. Form friendships with other girls and look beyond competition regarding shape and size or who is the thinnest.
3. To be HAPPY about reaching a healthy weight! That’s the toughest one.
4. Leave prepared to eat in a carefree, non-restrictive way, including “fun foods” (desserts, soda, etc.–basically everything I won’t eat now).
5. Leave with a mindset in which eating, exercising, wardrobe, and talk of food or dieting are not major sources of anxiety or obesession.
6. Fully committ myself to recovery by taking any desires to lose weight, starve, purge, or other ED thoughts with not even a grain of sand (or is it a grain of salt? What’s the expression?)
7. Stay in touch with at least a few close friends.
8. Become a less obsessive and anxious person in general and be less judgmental and nagative toward myself; improve confidence and self-esteem.
9. Alright, this sounds kind of heavy, but to become more spiritually attuned. I’ve noticed that this naturally goes with recovery. When I’m not so consumed with weight and food I can reflect on what really matters to me in life and who I am in the context of the world. I have also noticed that once I have a more positive aura I am more creative and more able to connect with other people.
10. What should my last goal be? I think ultimately to change the wiring in my brain my replacing self-harming and mean thoughts with loving and encouraging ones. This way, instead of getting myself down for eating a “fun food,” I can actually feel good about it. Also, if I change the way I percieve my own thoughts and feelings I can start to feel hunger again, and then I won’t have to follow a meal plan or obsess about servings because I will know what I need to eat.
That’s all for now. Wish me luck.
I wish you all the luck in the world and I pray that you will be able to complete all ten goals. Good luck girl and maybe keep a diary of thoughts while you’re there?
Laura d.
Good luck, girl– you can do this! While I can’t relate to what you’re going through personally, I appreciate the courage it takes to step up and face it. I’m praying for you.
-Sarah
Hey suzie, i am rooting for you all the way! ill always be here and i cant wait to see u and how ur doing. You can do this i knw u can, u have always been the type of girl who accomplished any goal she set for herself, i mean come on u wanted to go to brown and u did it! i have no doubt in my mind that u can do this!! i knw u can, just believe in yourself!!!good luck and i hope to see u soon!
Love your friend
Chantell
i wish u the best! i admire all ur courage! just remember that u can do anything if u can put ur mind to it! and let the lord be with u! i respect for all ur courage! and i wish u the best! ill pray everyday for u!
I am not diagnosed with an eating disorder but I have experienced the obsession for about a year and I am so tired of it. For months now I have been making goals similar to yours and thinking that I can accomplish them on my own, but it is seemingly hard. I feel like I am running in circles repeating myself over and over. But every time it gets a little better. All I really want is to just accept myself and be happy with life because I do know it is truely very good. I just have to believe it for myself. So best of luck to you for the same!
Good luck. Seriously and sincerely, I wish you the best of luck.
I’m very proud of you!
it takes alot of strength to pull through an eating disorder (I’m still recovering) somedays its easier and other days its harder. But to recognize that you will have tougher days will get you through them. Relapses are a part of recovering. each realapse has a bright side..what it was you learned from it. Don’t beat yourself up if you slip back one or two times. But you need to IMMEDIATELY go to someone, anyone, prefferably a trusted adult and share with them whats going on. You need to figure out why it is that you relapsed, what caused it, and how you can deal with the issue alone. because eating disorders are a way to cope with an unsolved problem. So its the real core issue inside of you that you need to tackle. Talk it out, write it out, PRAY (thats what I do), just look inside yourself. And maybe you can’t identify the problem just yet, but a trusted adult can help you. Theres alot of help out there. theres 1-800 numbers open 24/7. Theres alot of people who are willing to help you pull through, Im here if you need me. Remember also that you’re not alone. Eating disorders are all about control. Control of either restricting your eating or deciding whether or not youre going to keep it down. Many use it as an attempt to take control back since everything else around them seems so out of control. Other reasons are being sexually abused in the past (an attempt to make yourself less sexually desirable, telling themselves if theyre too skinny or too overweight then they won’t be sexually abused again) I’m not sure what your case is, but I know you’re doing an excellent job! Like I said it takes alot from a person to even get as 1/2 far as you. I have my struggles but I remind myself how far I’ve come, and that people like me for the way I am, I’m not fat, and I’m in control of my behaviors, I can gain control back by saying no to my impulses! I take control by saying “Today I’m not going to give up!” I’m in control of what I do. Im not going to let my disorder control me anymore!
I wish you all the best with your recovery. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers.
and remember that I’m always here to help you along the way.
You can get through this!
You can control this disorder! You fight it hard! you tell it that you’re in control now. And you fight it. You have all the strength in the world! just believe.
“somethings have to be believed to be seen”…believe that youre beautiful and you will see it!
Believe in God and you will see him. Believe that you’re in control and you will be!
read psalm 116.
keep on pushing!
love, Hanna
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McDonalds is AWESOMEEE.
JK.
I hate this stuff…
it is stupidd.
and ya know what.
their chicken nugget things are NASTY cause they are pre made and they are NASTY looking and NEVER Ever ever good.
:/
i was just wondering how u make a feed.
cause i’m trying to write one about my battle with cancer and raise awarenes for it but idk how to do it..
also i am wishing you the best of luck with your situation. just hang in their and you can get through it!!!